Moving Forward to 2011

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There’s a phrase I started hearing incessantly when I first started working in Washington; the phrase is “moving forward.” It’s one of these nearly content-free business-speak phrases that’s meant to convey some sort of reassurance of lesson or lessons learned and well-aimed activity into the future. “Moving forward, we will ensure that….” “We’ll take that into account moving forward.”

I find it kind of grating, but I also tend to adopt the regionalisms wherever I happen to reside, so I find myself using it now and then, too. And over time I’ve come to find it less of an annoying Dilbertian notion and to accept it in a world-weary sort of way. Because really, at any given moment and in any given circumstance, what choice do we have but to move forward? Even those nostalgic for a past that never was recognize deep down that we cannot actually go back to those halcyon days of [pick your preferred decade or century of bliss] – we have take the here and now on its own terms and act accordingly.

So, here it is 2011, and while I could write a retrospective of my year, I find that I really don’t want to dwell too much. It wasn’t a bad year. Many things about it were quite good. And nothing terrible or even very bad happened in our immediate family. But I have a vague personal sense of dissatisfaction with my 2010 performance overall. I don’t really have much option but to move forward, though, so that’s the plan!

And, here it is January 1st, and already:

  • We’ve been actually social – meeting some friends for brunch this morning.
  • I started a new Project 365 and kicked it off with a subject other than TheLittleGuy. (Don’t get me wrong, most will probably be of TLG.)
  • I made use of Runkeeper (although, as I mentioned on Twitter, we shall not discuss time or distance) and some new running shoes. (By the way, I understand that Runkeeper Pro is free through January – totally worth paying for, so definitely grab it!)
  • And, as soon as I hit the button here, I shall have blogged.

There were some entire months, I think, in 2010, where none of that happened. (Except the picture taking – I got pics of TLG nearly every week, I think.)

So that’s a good start, yah?

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End of 2010, Already?

TLG at USBG Christmas Tree (1)
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It would be a shame to let the calendar year end without at least one more entry here in this increasingly empty space. Empty not so much by choice, mind you, but by circumstances known as: utter lack of mental energy by the time a slice of time opens up where I could write here. Sigh. Maybe that’ll yet change in the future, again.

I have a small slice of time right now while TheGuy coaxes TheLittleGuy to sleep. TLG is doing well, by the way, although he’s come down with a nasty bug over the holiday and coughs himself awake. (But even when he’s healthy, he resists going to sleep like no one’s business. This was pretty much driving me stark raving mad. So TheGuy stepped in and relieved me of TLG-bedtime duties for awhile. I can’t really blame TLG – I have a hard time going to sleep, too. Still; it’s crazy-making.) Apart from that one glitch, though, he’s great fun. Talking, opining, learning, and growing like mad. I still marvel sometimes when he’s wandering around the house doing his TLG thing. Who is this good-looking genius kid walking around my house? He just had his 30-month birthday. So we’ve made it to 2.5 without major trauma; yay us!

We are considering very carefully some schooling options for him for junior kindergarten and beyond–one in particular. I have a lot to say about this modern dilemma – although dilemma is much too strong a term. Still, we may need to set up a TLG education fund sooner than I’d thought. We’ll see.

Overall it has been an incredibly busy year. $WORK has been not quite as [redacted] as some years, and I’ve even managed some actual visible output, including a cover feature in one of my erstwhile discipline’s ‘big’ publications next month. It is possible that next year will not be nearly so crazy as this year. On the other hand, it’s possible that it could be just as crazy. However, the former statement has not been true at the end of most year’s, so, let’s hear it for a possible downgrade in the crazy-levels!

Parenting a toddler-turning-pre-schooler is definitely a different exercise than parenting an infant. I know – that’s obvious, but my blog, my space to state the obvious as it applies to me, blah blah. Anyway, I still feel as though I’m in a bit of a tunnel of intensity that is only slowly lessening. But now that rudimentary multi-part conversations are possible, now comes the time to sort out some tactics, not merely survival mechanisms. I have several good references that I find helpful for ideas, but, as usual, not enough time to re-read (or discuss with others) to reinforce the lessons I want to be sure to apply. So I give myself a B- (and that’s generous) in terms of meeting my own desired overall parenting approach.

Virtually all personal projects have ground to a halt between $WORK and $PARENTING. I have a faint hope that I can restart some in 2011, but I had that hope in 2010, too, and such efforts petered out quickly. Sigh.

TheGuy and I are taking a couple of days off now to try to do a mad dash to catch up on some long-lingering household projects. I am also continuing my quest to remove excess Stuff and do feel like I’m making relatively steady (if slow) progress on that. We have also been doing quite well at removing toys, clothes, and equipment that TLG has outgrown – a task made much simpler by the fact that I have an aunt who runs an in-home daycare and has 2 grandchildren younger than TLG. But, TLG’s stuff is really only a small part of our Battle Against Stuff.

On the churning, burning issues of the day,: Pfeh. What a mess. Pick your favorite burning issue – doesn’t that assessment pretty much apply?

Alright, running out of steam. I may get another window to post here again before things kick back into high gear. If so, what should be the topic?

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Government Mandated Groping

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Many people are writing about the choice the U.S. government is now offering people in some airports: submit to the porno-scanner or be groped. A few quick reactions to some of what I have read so far. I am being a bad blogger and not peppering this post with as many links as I’d like due to limited time. Sorry.

I disagree with Anil Dash’s suggestion that if DHS’ tactics meet the goal of making people “feel” safer, then they’re somehow ok. It’s possibly -possibly, although I am not wholly persuaded- a legitimate goal to try to foster a “feeling” of confidence and safety in a community (whether that feeling is rational or not), but if that’s actually the goal, let’s talk about how best to do that. We could, for instance, learn from anthropologists, sociologists, and psychologists. We could ask historians to weigh in. We could be debriefed by engineers who’ve developed large-scale systems used by humans about what seems effective and what doesn’t. Does anyone actually think that a serious look at how to make a population “feel safe” (and first, let’s define what we mean by that!) would result in this Kafka-esque scenario? Really? No. I said to Anil: “so the role of government is to cater to & indulge fear now? Why not foster resilience & robustness toward a more perfect union?”

There are also questions about why this technology is being invested in so heavily. Apparently Michael Chertoff stands to benefit financially? Hmm. That’s interesting, yah?

There are those who scoff at concern about the alleged “low levels” of radiation resulting from any single scan. The jury is possibly still out on the comparative risk (here’s the government’s best case that the risk is minimal), but I don’t think the dosage, however low it is (oh, no more than say, what your tv exposes you to – or whatever the argument is) really matters. These devices, while regulated (well, to the extent that U.S. government tries to regulate anything anymore in our free market utopia; ahem), are not like medical devices and they are not managed by trained radiologists. Even if the nominal operating parameters are “safe”, how hard is it for errors to happen? How easy is it to know that errors are happening? 25 years ago there was the Therac 25.  We still haven’t learned the lessons of that misfeasance, though.  Just in the last few years were major overdoses in radiation at large hospitals. Imagine one of these scanners ends up miscalibrated and dozens or hundreds of travelers are overdosed without anyone noticing. Given our history with even carefully monitored and regulated devices under the supervision of trained MDs, does anyone seriously think this couldn’t happen?

Personally, I don’t care as much about the porno-scanner (nudie pics, storage, transmission) aspect of these devices — although the unprofessional and rank misogyny and homophobia and, frankly, bullying that’s been reported in association with them is.. troubling, to say the least. I care about those issues from a policy perspective, but that’s a separate question from whether I’m worried about some headless nudie pic of me titillating someone in a backroom somewhere. From what I understand – limited though my meagre understanding may be – about system failure, dependable software, and our history of not designing these things well, I am extremely skittish about the potential health consequences – both on an individual level, and from a public health perspective. Increasing the numbers of pointless radiation doses – and let’s face it, it’s pointless security theatre – aimed at large portions of the population is likely to result in an uptick in negative side effects. Even if it’s a small uptick, it seems a foolish experiment to conduct on a grand scale without some serious foundational work being done — both on the systems engineering and design aspects, and on determining what the actual goals of these screenings and other security measures are and whether this technology is best-suited to meet them, not to mention some rigorous analysis of possible health effects (for operators and those being screened).

And even apart from the specifics of privacy and health, I worry about the implications for society of what continues to be a prioritization of “security” (more accurately, what is claimed to be increased security, but may often just be security theatre or simply the enrichment of some gadget vendor somewhere) at huge cost and over many other equally important societal values.

I found the video of a reporter’s shrieking 3-year-old daughter being pawed by an agent of my government extremely upsetting. Barring something unforeseen, we will not fly with TheLittleGuy until he is much older. For many reasons – sheer logistics being one of them. But potentially subjecting him to bureaucratic manhandling that would convey him to the powerlessness of a citizenry in the face of the almighty State is just not a lesson I’m inclined for him to absorb until he’s had a bit more cognitive development such that we can discuss it afterwards.

I also find it troubling that the government changed the policy on pat-downs so that if you refuse the porno-scanner, you no longer get the mild version of a pat down (which I’ve been subjected to a few times, actually), but an “enhanced pat-down” whereby TSA agents will apparently use fingers to probe and grope. It also makes me wonder, from a bureaucratic perspective, how the training to conduct these pat-downs is conducted. And how were they able to get a trained enhanced genital prober into all the airports that have these scanners so quickly. Or, were they? Stories about the professionalism of TSA agents are mixed at best. Is it considered a coup or a demotion to be assigned the task of genital groping? Glenn Greenwald RT’d someone wondering how close to Milgram experiment land we are. Yeah, we’re getting close.

Earlier today in my Twitter stream, someone also noted: “GROPING! It happens to straight dudes too, now, so everybody pay attention.” Yeah. Well. That aspect of things is always interesting, too.

The upshot at the moment for me is that I will avoid flying if at all possible. Right now I fly only for work. And if I’m faced with a choice between the porno-scanner and the grope, I expect I’ll opt for the grope. As I said on Twitter, I am fortunate not to have trigger-y issues; I’ve not been raped or sexually assaulted previously; and after breastfeeding for so long, I’m fairly pragmatic about boobs as just another useful body part.

I’ve got a couple of flights after the first of the year. If this nonsense is still going on and I get to make that “choice,” I’ll report back here (and maybe directly to Twitter straight from the grope zone).

Do stay tuned.

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Evernote Still Way Cool

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I’ve written at least a couple of posts about the lovely and now-essential-to-me app Evernote over at CurrentMom.

Here may be my first mention of it. Here I rave about it again. I’m still not even close to a proper power user, though, although I see it’s vast potential.  I don’t really understand the whole Trunk thing they recently rolled out, but whatever.

Breaching the Web has also come aboard the Evernote bandwagon and points out some helpful things.

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Media Recommendations

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Two media recommendations for you.

Music:
Vienna Teng – software engineer turned touring musician; pianist, singer-songwriter, and now turning business school student. Probably my best find since A.J. Roach. Recommended by a $WORK-COLLEAGUE who can take credit in comments if s/he wants.

Television:
I watched four season of Bones on Netflix streaming, and hope that I get around to blogging my somewhat complicated reaction to it before it all falls out of my head (generally recommended, though). But the 5th season is not on Netflix, so I started watching the British series MI-5 (called Spooks in the U.K.). It’s a very tense-making show, and the first couple of episodes are pretty brutal. But the beauty of Netflix streaming is that I can easily fast-forward through tense scenes (and I do). Unlike cartoonish and thuggish American shows like 24, this is actually a reasonably sophisticated take–for a mass audience tv show–on the complicated role of intelligence services in these times. The British-ness of it is an extra layer of fun and makes it that much more interesting. The characters’ attitudes toward the American CIA are also very entertaining. For some reason, something to do with 5th seasons, I guess, Netflix doesn’t have season 5 of MI-5 available for streaming – and season 4 ended on a big cliffhanger. So I may have to resort to the DVDs.

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Failure to Lead

Poynter Front Pages of Obama Victory
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On this week’s election results:

Kevin crafted a great summary with lots of links. Read it. I couldn’t decide on a pull-quote, so just read the whole thing.

Athenae is typically incisive as well.

Here’s the problem, you gutless fucks. You had majorities. And I KNOW, okay, but all America sees is that you had majorities and you wasted them. Because that’s what the GOP told them, and you said, “buh buh buh” and couldn’t point to anything you did right, not even with the unwashed hippies holding your arm up for you. You had majorities, and you had Harry Reid, refusing to be mean to Republicans by shoving stuff through. You had majorities, and you had Barack Obama acting like he was already an ex-president and could be gracious and social with these pricks. You had majorities, used them to do some stuff, and then sat back and acted like we should be grateful when we can fucking count.

Aside: I switched WordPress themes because the other one had a bug about post titles that I couldn’t figure out how to easily fix. This new theme is ok, I guess. That’s my picture of the pumpkins up there.

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iPhone Apps at CurrentMom

I wrote about a few iPhone apps I like to use over at CurrentMom.  Some day soon I will compile a list of all of my CurrentMom post and put that here for reference. Been saying that for awhile though.

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A Post About Something that Doesn’t Bug Me

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I don’t smoke. I’ve never smoked. Never even tried.

But, unlike apparently most non-smokers, I don’t dislike the smell of cigarette smoke. In fact, sometimes I quite like it. This struck me – not for the first time – when I was walking to the Metro the other day. I was walking behind a guy who was smoking some sort of thin cigar. And I paced him for about a block, just behind and to the side, so that I could ‘enjoy’ the second hand smoke.

I think it’s because I have no particularly bad associations with cigarette smoke. Just the opposite; for the most part my associations of smoking are with my grandmother (cigarettes) and my great-grandfather (tobacco pipe). (Oh, I took Nancy Reagan’s exhortations to heart way back when and tried to get my grandmother to quit smoking. When we’d visit, my cousin and I would sometimes hide her cigarettes. And ultimately the smoking led to her early death. But that was much later.)

I never spent a lot of time in seedy bars smelling of stale cigarette smoke. I never dated a smoker and my parents didn’t smoke so I never had to actually live with cigarette smoke. It was always just an occasional second-hand experience for me as a child – often at holidays. So no wonder that I don’t have any particular negative reaction to it. I’m also fortunate that I don’t have allergies or asthma, so apart from particulate irritation to my eyes in very smoky rooms, it just really doesn’t bother me. Even in restaurants (less of an issue these days), unless someone is blowing smoke directly into my face or onto my food, I tend not to care.

I think it’s a foolish thing to do given what we know about its effects on the body. And the evidence is pretty clear that exposing children to constant second-hand smoke is quite dangerous for them. So yeah, a bad scene. Don’t do it.

But of the things that bug me as I wander through the world? Being momentarily in the vicinity of a smoker really doesn’t make the cut.

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Noting Election Day

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I half-composed an entry about smoking[1] in my head while walking to the Metro this afternoon. Totally unrelated to current events. But maybe I’ll save that for another day. It somehow seems inappropriate to just ignore Election Day on a sometimes-political blog on Election Day itself.

So yeah. I voted. Pfeh.

I think I’m going to have to stop reading Twitter for the rest of the evening, though, because real-time input about the lunatic fringe taking over the government again just seems pretty unpleasant. Like I said earlier in my Twitter stream, maybe I’ll just queue up some tense torture scenes from MI-5 (Spooks in British-speak) to try to relax and help me sleep. Bitter-ha.

A couple of people I recommend for trenchant commentary, if you feel compelled: @drgrist, @peterdaou,

[1] I don’t smoke. Don’t panic.

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This Place is So Broken

The Capitol Building
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I did not attend Jon Stewart’s rally on the Mall this weekend. I’m mostly burnt out on big rallies on the mall – not that I’ve gone to all that many. Probably won’t go to another one until TheLittleGuy is quite a bit older and is interested. I did watch a bit of it streaming live. And that plus the little bit I’ve read about it has been disappointing. It seems that vague appeals to civility and a weak-kneed false equivalence along with a cutesy song are the best the nation’s top satirists can do in these absurd times. And I’m really not persuaded by a prioritization of “civil discourse” over, say, “civil rights” — pearl clutching gets old and is often used as a smokescreen and distraction to avoid addressing substantive issues. Moreover, some of the vilest ideas are sometimes expressed in “civil” tones and language–calls for civility are a red herring.

In any event, I’ve become intrigued lately by efforts at the local and regional level to address problems that will not be addressed by the federal government–climate change and sustainability being at the top of the queue. That’s not to say I think that certain problems can’t or shouldn’t be addressed by a functional federal government, just that I think our prospects for a functional, problem-solving federal government anytime in the next few, oh, decades are slim. And if seriously hard problems are not going to be addressed here, then what am I doing here? I stuck it out through the Bush years in the vague hope that perhaps sanity (hattip JS & SC) would get a toehold. But, as someone, maybe Krugman, said the other day, the Obama administration never misses an opportunity to miss an opportunity. And like this fellow here, I despair that any actual progress will be made in D.C. on any of the large challenges we face.

So, maybe my time and energy would be better spent elsewhere. Where exactly, I don’t know. And on which suite of issues, I don’t know–many options there, since there are so many seriously wicked problems. But here? The place seems just so completely sclerotic.

ObCaveat: I’m told there can be a massive prolactin crash post-weaning that can last for weeks. That could be coloring my views of things a tad.

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